Welcome to Random Journal Day!
It is the first Friday of August and we are cruising through Summer and almost to Fall! Don’t get your panties up in a bunch, there’s still a few more weeks of Summer left, as well as Shark Week and my BIG birthday this year. Actually, both our Featured Journal Keeper and I are turning the big 5-0 this year so it is a super duper special month for us!
I “met” Stacy when I started blogging, and I remember I discovered her blog while she was attending a Blog conference. As a new blogger this intrigued me and I began following her and connecting with her through this great big wonderful world-wide web. Between our e-mails, blog sharing and comments we became friends. I have felt a kindred connection with Stacy in the interactions and have appreciated her place here in the blogosphere greatly. Over the past few years we have gotten to know each other a bit, and although she is not always around for RJD day we share a love of journaling, blogging and the great God of all Online and Offline Activity- I know many of you will appreciate Stacy’s thoughts and so here she is:
-Also be sure and check out the Bullet Journal System, she is currently using. I have completely guilted her into sharing with us regularly!
I have to say that I feel sort of odd writing a post for Random Journal Day, in spite of Dawn’s sweet invitation, because I don’t actually participate in the group. That’s basically because, while I do keep journals, I don’t usually save them these days once they are completed. You’re gasping in shock, I can hear you. Trust me, it pains me, too. So, why do I do it? Why do I part with the pages I’ve poured my heart out onto? Let me explain…
I always believed my journals were my safe place. My family ruined that for me. My husband and children are apparently no respecters of privacy or boundaries. Several times in the past they snooped in my journals and came away angry.
Nothing that I wrote was worse than anything that most likely ran through their minds at times…I just chose to process my thoughts on paper. Writing helps me to focus and I am more articulate on paper. I wrote things I felt or thought and ran through the process of working through them. The things I wrote I’d never have said to anyone’s face and the whole point of journaling them was to let them go.
Apparently, those who don’t write, don’t understand that need. They all took it very personally. I still journal, but the only really deep emotions and feelings I write about are about myself and my journey with God. If I touch on anyone else, my writing is now tainted by the thought that they may read it and I write to not offend. I am even careful in my written prayers for them, saving my deepest, heartfelt pleas to be cried out to God alone.
All those years of journals…all those memories…all those thoughts from the early years of marriage, raising my children, the ups and downs….it’s all gone. I destroyed it all because I didn’t want to hurt anyone or have my own words twisted against me again.
The only journals I have now are recent. I no longer keep a daily journal of my days and my views and opinions of them. I have a prayer journal and something called a Bullet Journal that I recently discovered. It’s really more like a planner, but since I create it as I go I add all sorts of goodies to the pages. You can see mine here-http://stacyswatermelon.com/2014/07/10/bullet/
Dawn and I have differing views on this, but I also consider blogging as a form of journaling. What are we doing there, but sharing a slice of ourselves and our lives, pondering things, sharing information, and creating bonds. It’s just interactive with feedback from readers we choose to share with. I will tell you that you won’t find any deep, dark secrets on my blog, either.
So, that’s what journaling is to me. There have been some very difficult days in my journaling life, but I’ve learned some valuable lessons (if you write about anyone other than yourself, ALWAYS write something positive) and I hope I’ve grown.
Thank you, Dawn, for inviting me to write a post this month. I enjoyed it and I promise I will try to join in with the link ups each month.
Happy journaling, everyone!
Stop by Stacy’s :
NOW LET”S GET LINKING UP OUR JOURNALS!