When Your Heart (and Desk) Is Overwhelmed

Notice the upside down calendar-
There’s your sign!
Hear my cry, O God,
    listen to my prayer;
 from the end of the earth I call to you
    when my heart is faint.
Lead me to the rock
    that is higher than I
Psalm 62 1-2

I want it to be easier. This parenting thing. I’ll just say it…I want it all to be easier. Not just the parenting. The wife thing. The finance thing. Life. The friend thing, the keeping up with housework thing. Why can’t it be easier? I look around at my mess. Clutter piled high in my favorite space. My creative space is under a pile of papers and I can’t fathom when I will have the time, at the same time I will have energy, to find anything, let alone create something beautiful. So I take to the keyboard and let loose my heart, mind and soul seeking redemption through the release of a few typewritten words. 
Hear my cry, O God,
    listen to my prayer;

I wonder the days when I roamed free, like a wild pony. 
A different life. 
Not uncluttered, mind you. 
Just different clutter.
I look around me and long to be free from the messiness of life, accepting the reality that the laundry washed, dried and folded today emerges tomorrow, stained, soiled and needy for soap. Again.
Like my soul.
 from the end of the earth I call to you

Life. It happens fast, it demands all of you, and at times it leaves you feeling like you have been
sideswiped by a Mack truck. It leaves you depleted, drained, and tired.  
    when my heart is faint.
When you wait for answers, clarity, focus and instead are handed more questions, opacity and double-vision. 
Lead me to the rock 
I am not my mess.
All that I see is temporary.
I need to step back and stop judging by the mess I see and think I see. In front of me.
And what I think I see in the “mess” of others.
that is higher than I,
I need God focus.
I need to see my Rock.
But the LORD has become my fortress, and my God the rock in whom I take refuge.
Psalm 94:22
If your life feels a little messy or cluttered with stuff your not sure what to do with (literally or figuratively) will you pray along with me? 

Lord, you are my Rock, Strength, and Savior.
Be not far from me, for trouble is near, for there is none to help (Psalm 22:11).
But, You God… are a Mighty God, My Mighty God, My Peace and Strength.
You promised never to leave nor forsake me and my hope remains in You.
Therefore I will praise you in my mess and trust in your faithfulness. 


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Dawn Paoletta is the author of Journaling for Discovery and Delight. Her writing is included in several anthologies and her poems have been included in the Wickford Poetry and Art Exhibit and Books. Dawn is currently working on her next book. Inquiries at dawn.paoletta@gmail.com

11 thoughts on “When Your Heart (and Desk) Is Overwhelmed

  1. Oh so beautiful, I have been praying a similar prayer lately. Thank you so much for this reminder of who to go to when life is cluttered.


  2. Hi Dawn – Okay – so – I couldn't decide which of your latest posts to comment on because they were all “hitting” me!! This one the most since my office looks like your desk. I know the place . . . seems a 24/7 situation for me – and still – I manage to move forward and I don't even know how. Yes – do email me – what's going with homeschool and you and what happened with the devotional circle journal ideas? Look forward to hearing from you!!Joy!Kathy


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