What did I expect? From marriage? Motherhood? Life?
So much more in many ways. So much less in others.
I wonder what I need to remember.
Why this word twists around my stomach and makes a knot.
Because it reminds me of disappointment.
But, one think in this crazy ride called my life, that I never expected would have been to be right here, right now. When I was young somehow I learned early a lesson.
Expect nothing, and never be disappointed.
That’s what children like me learn to trust.
It is a self – defense mechanism. Protection from pain at a cost.
I never expected though…
to be embraced by an invisible lover.
A God who bent from Heaven to lift me up.
Post 5 Minute Writing thoughts: One of my favorite quotes came to mind during this writing prompt as well as the verse from Romans. I enjoy the harder prompts as well as the fun ones. To me this one was hard. As a child who waited for a step – father out on the steps with an overnight suitcase packed with high hopes of a fun visit, only to realize as it got later that he was not coming…again. Eventually stopping visits altogether, you can understand how “expectation” can present a challenge…and opportunity.
Grace my friends…it’s all grace.
Drink deep and full of the love of God and you will not demand the impossible from earth’s loves, and the love of wife and child, of husband and friend will grow holier and healthier and simpler and grander.
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.