The Lack

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This morning I woke up, went to my desk and penned this poem. Sometimes I feel that calling myself a writer is a half truth.  Because when words come, I sometimes am faithful to make myself available to the tumbling forth…but then does that make me a writer, or a just a word catcher? I am as one who is led, one who avails to that which flows, not one who desires to control the flow of what comes….I just don’t know. But today I give you what came to me. May it be a blessing.


On Long Walks and Mercy…(5 Minute Friday)

Well, the link for Lisa-Jo’s 5 Minute Friday is now 10:00 instead of 12 midnight-ish. And guess what? This tired mamma who wants to get her write on found mercy on Thursday night! 
And then I had to save this from Twitter. Because I am sentimental AND I really am horrible at Twitter BUT look, I got a twitter #fmfparty HINT from the Queen of the 5 Minute Write herself! 
So there I was, tired and then BAM. Revived. This least likely to Tweet successfully had 5 minutes of Twitter happiness. Whoohoo. OK. Perfect word. Here we go…Mercy.
There could not be a better word for right now. This night. Almost Friday and today left me feeling completely…done. I never understood how this one thing could take so much right out of a person. I never really understood. But here I stand. Motherhood. Parenting. Call it what you want. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I mean, add to the fact that my daughter actually is convinced that she IS the girl who knows everything. In some ironic twist of fate that leaves my mother chuckling, I am humbled daily by the lessons presented to me. Not on a silver platter. I’m learning painful lessons, that I don’t really want to learn. I mean at least this way. I mean, what mother really wants to take a long walk on a short pier? Who says that? I do. I say it jokingly, but I have learned, it is not something I should not say at all. Because His mercy is present. And lessons are painful, but needful. Humility, patience, perseverance…grace are not just words, but keys to a better way. A way I am still learning. By grace, through faith and all of His mercy moments. 
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One Night in Boston (How to lose a car, make a friend and find God in 24 hours) Pt 3

03 Jul 2013 7 Comments

We Are Never Off God’s Radar
Well here we are on the final leg of this journey…
If you are popping into this little post, you need to know this is the last of three. Part one and two are here:
The Adventure Begins…
Men Hate to Ask for Directions…
And now we conclude this little Boston adventure…

 Can I go anywhere apart from Your Spirit?
    Is there anywhere I can go to escape Your watchful presence?
 Even if I am afraid and think to myself, “There is no doubt that the darkness will swallow me,
    the light around me will soon be turned to night,”
 You can see in the dark, for it is not dark to Your eyes.
    For You the night is just as bright as the day.
    Darkness and light are the same to Your eyes.
Psalm 139:7, 11-12 (The Voice)

I slip into the back seat and hubby sits up front. We have accepted the help of a local stranger who has  offered to take us to the parking lot…and help us figure out just which one it is. The fact is, we had a card with the lot address on it, but it was pretty useless to us for two reasons: 1.We were completely unfamiliar with area. 2. Hubby thought he knew where we needed to go and was completely convinced he was headed in the right direction. Did I mention he is Italian?
You know what I’m saying?

I have a question for you. Have you ever been convinced you were going in the right direction only to find out that you had it completely wrong?

Our angelic host and personal chaperon Tito refused to give up on us. “I’m gonna get you to your car.” We were now his mission. He drove us from one end of the city to the other, trying to locate the specific small lot where we left our car approximately 6 hours earlier. The trouble was there were two areas at opposite ends of the city with the same name. Hubs was convinced we parked near where we left our daughter. I was convinced otherwise, yet not so sure I knew whether it mattered since everything looked the same in the city after walking all night.

Everything looks different in the dark.

After weaving and whizzing through the the city streets, we made a final loop that retraced our ride almost exactly from Fenway Park into the city. As we started to see the city coming from this angle, it hit my man…we both recognized the reality. We had been walking completely in the wrong direction for the majority of the time. This took us further and further from our ultimate destiny until our friend Tito (aka Clarence) showed up.

But, the fact is God sees everything clearly.
My sin. My husband’s sin.
All sin.

This is what the Lord declares,
 He says to His children…mercy.

He sends us His immeasurable grace, as we pour out wrath on one another. See, while we were yet sinners, God was authorizing Mercy. Grace. Peace. Good. He was authoring our happy ending…IS continuing to write His story in each one of our lives as we open our eyes to His truth!As we stumble around wondering if He sees us. Sees me in this city…lost, angry at my husband. Following him through a maze of pavement and mad about it.While my husband is convinced he has it under control and he doesn’t, but God sees it all and He says MERCY!

See, even when I am wrong, God says MERCY.
When my husband is wrong, Mercy.
When we go astray, convinced we are going the right way, He commands Mercy!

I have a message for you.
Wives, your husband may be sincerely wrong, and believe he is right.
This frustrates you and causes you to fret.
But God is faithful.
He sees all, perfectly.

 You can see in the dark, for it is not dark to Your eyes.
    For You the night is just as bright as the day.
    Darkness and light are the same to Your eyes.

Stop fretting and start trusting because God is trustworthy, faithful and true.
If you trust God, even when your hub has it wrong, He will take care of you both.
Your response when your hubby is wrong: Mercy!
God’s response when you are wrong: Mercy!
As we approached the lot with great relief, my hubby kept shaking his head in disbelief.
He completely forgot a portion of our journey from earlier. It was so obvious we both had forgotten where we started our journey.

But God never lost sight of us.
Not for one second.

As we slid out of Tito’s car, I thanked him. He refused to accept anything for his help. I told him I was thankful to God for him.

He gave me a big smile, “I must have been sent for you.”

With a nod, wave and one more check, asking if we would be OK to get where we needed to go- he drove off into the night.


“Do all the good you can. By all the means you can. In all the ways you can. In all the places you can. At all the times you can. To all the people you can. As long as ever you can.”
John Wesley

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Leaving Behind The Myth {It Will Get "Easier"}

21 Aug 2012 15 Comments

Yet man is born to trouble 
as surely as sparks fly upward.
Job 5:7
I was thinking while driving to the market. Do you find you get your deepest insights at the most inconvenient times for writing. I mean pondering while driving has caused me to miss more than one exit. And sometimes long, steamy showers absolutely produce epiphany moments. I will tell you also, if you promise not to tell anyone, I get great workout ideas in the shower. Weird, right? Dangerous practicing a kick in the shower, but…let’s get this train back on track. Halt.

I got to thinking about this belief that I have been coming up against lately.
Maybe you will disagree.
Maybe you might just agree or relate.
Either way, I just am sharing a few thoughts about what 
I believe is a myth.
Or a lie.
Or a fairy-tale.
Or all of the above.
Now, I am not a cynic.
Or a crybaby.
I’m just a girl trying to make sense of a crazy world.
But the fact is this world is never gonna make sense.
I know that.
So instead I am wrapping around,
how I can embrace today.
As it is.
This imperfect life that God has bled out and called sacred.

This myth is really one you might be clinging to, 
but I assure you it is not worthy of your loyalty.

Do you think that tomorrow will be easier?
Friend, easier than what?

Are the funds tight?
Are you struggling to make ends meet;
 to put food on the table,
to clothe your little ones?
Are the bills piled high
and the job prospects low?
Is your marriage a desert?
Is the phone ringing always, from strangers not friends?
Are you feeling alone, forgotten, rejected?

What if nothing changes?
What if it gets harder?
See, I don’t want you to have a false hope.
A hope that depends on some elusive easier day.
The days ARE evil, friend.
We are living in times where wicked happens at a breakneck speed.
People barely even notice.
We have become numb to our own blessings.
We expect ease.
But our ease comes from knowing Him.

I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace
In the world you will have tribulation. 
But take heart; I have overcome the world.
John 16:33

I cannot find a passage that implies that we as Believers are to aim for a life of ease.
I can’t find where it says in Scripture to take the easiest path possible.

Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; 
set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed.
1 Peter 1:13

But I see in His Holy Word, real life accounts of men and women who
followed Him imperfectly but were embraced by His Mercy and Grace.
I see Moses, Jacob (I have come to realize this past year we have some common issues!),
Joseph, David, Samson, Solomon, Rahab, Job, Peter, Paul and so many more.
I see a Faithful God in each of their lives.
A God promises that He will never leave nor forsake us.
That if the fires are turned up higher, and higher still,
He will burn inside with us and we will be consumed by His love,
 for He will not let us be touched by anything
that has not passed before Him first.

Though he slay me, I will hope in him…
Job 13:15a

So my grand conclusion is that I don’t believe things in life will get easier.
I’m OK, if they don’t.
I realize if I can’t see the blessing, right here, right now,
feel the richness of the portion He has dished out today-
whatever the reason,
then easier won’t necessitate better.
I suppose the biggest clincher is our leader.
Jesus didn’t take the easy path.
Consider Him.
Leave the myth behind.

So, my dear Christian friends, companions in following this call to the heights, 
take a good hard look at Jesus. 
He’s the centerpiece of everything we believe,
 faithful in everything God gave him to do.
Hebrews 3:1

Consider what God has done:
Who can straighten
    what he has made crooked? 
 When times are good, be happy;
    but when times are bad, consider this:
God has made the one
    as well as the other. 
Therefore, no one can discover
    anything about their future.
Ecclesiastes 7:13

Lord God, May we not be found naked, wretched and poor
but faithful, holy and clean.
By your grace through faith.
Thank you that you have made this possible
by your sacrifice, example and blood.

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The Dangers of Favoritism

25 May 2012 1 Comment

My brothers, as believers in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ, don’t show favoritism.
James 2:1

I have seen again and again the damage done in Christian circles by those who call themselves followers but refuse to yield themselves to this verse. Parents, Teachers, Pastors, Youth Leaders and many others involved in ministry.
I have seen it in the church and outside of the church. Both believers and unbelievers are guilty of it.
Showing favoritism.
I have been guilty of it.
I have been the victim of it.
You have been. Your children have been.
Someone you love will be in the future.
We who claim the light must not walk in darkness but examine ourselves. 
I continue to seek God concerning this issue because it is such an insidious and offensive sin, 
especially within the Church. Now. 
Seems like a simple enough directive. But the heart is desperately wicked. We are so easily deceived. 
We are lured into comforts that God never desired for us with regard to our spiritual lives. If you think you do not show favoritism, then I want to ask you the last time you welcomed someone new into your life? Not just said “Hi”, in passing, but took a genuine interest in their lives. When was the last time you were inconvenienced by someone who didn’t meet up to your expectations of what a “Christian”, “good person”, “proper citizen”  should be? 
We want to abide in the Us and Them mentality that Christ himself condemns.
We want to talk about evangelism, study the Bible, 
argue theological points and give our testimonies on Sunday and Wednesday.
Instead of being a living testimony to the Truth every day.

Instead of letting grace ooze from our pores 24-7, we want to sit in small comfortable circles of like-minded individuals debating doctrine- instead of extending a courtesy to a newcomer or kindness to a stranger.
We want to see miracles and healing but not touch another’s leprosy.
We want to heap judgment on the nation, instead of prayers in a closet with tears
 for those who are blinded by lies.
How dare we.
How dare You.
How dare I.
Be outraged at the thought of favoritism. 
It is not Christlike.
It destroys testimony, it is Satan’s tool, it is ugly to a God who does NOT play favorites. 
Guard yourself wherever you with regard to this sin and watch how God 
opens your heart to those around you and blesses you.
Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom, because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. 
Mercy triumphs over judgment!

 My brothers, if one of you should wander from the truth and someone should bring him back,  remember this: Whoever turns a sinner from the error of his way will save him from death and cover over a multitude of sins.
James 5:19-20

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