Your Destiny Is Not In Things



This Sunday there was a message our Pastor taught on the scripture passage from Luke (12:13-21) and it was absolutely a needed one for me… It is something God has been trying to work into my soul for awhile now. It’s a passage that is so easy to see and say- oh, that’s not me. Or, this YUCK in me is no big deal, or I’m not as bad as ______________________ (add your own prideful nonsense). But the truth is I have known the ugly truth about myself for awhile. I know that there’s still a lot more yuck in me than meets the eye, and I am grateful that God (and some people) see beyond it- BUT I am also grateful for a God who says, “ENOUGH! You need to rely on me more with this YUCK in you if you want to move on”.  I really want to say with confidence, I get this…I know this and I do…but the working out in these deeply profound truths in our lives is…well, it’s freakin’ painful and hard! Therefore by His grace I go…with that old limp as a reminder… More

Theological Deduction


The Spirit gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life. However, there are some of you who do not believe.”

John 6:63-64


Without eternity

there is no reason  to smile,

and every reason

to be afraid.



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What they do in heaven we are ignorant of; what they do not do we are told expressly. – Jonathan Swift

The doctrine of the Kingdom of Heaven, which was the main teaching of Jesus, is certainly one of the most revolutionary doctrines that ever stirred and changed human thought. – H. G. Wells

He whose head is in heaven need not fear to put his feet into the grave. – Matthew Henry

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Nevertheless (Thoughts on The Will of God)

There is a drum beat in my head as of late, tapping out the words, “The Will of God, The Will of God, The Will of God.” There has been a theme pursuing me, calling after me, causing me to pause and turn my gaze from my  current path. To question my direction, and be sure I travel the way that matters. There is a voice I hear, and it tells me to look up. 
My flesh has been drumming up some of it’s own beats, they sound like this: “What about me?”, That’s not fair!”, “But, they are are wrong.”. My fleshly objections to the will of God always start with “But” and end with me. Actually, capitalize that: Me. To be more precise, and I quote directly, “But, what about me?”
I have a suspicion God’s Will and my will are so diametrically opposed that it will take a miracle for them to merge into the one. Fortunately, I need not be reminded, that has already been provided. That supernatural, flesh killing, miraculous transformation is painfully and joyfully underway. It started the day I said, Yes to Jesus. It started despite my doubts that anything had actually happened. It began even though I did not understand all of the theology behind the belief. It happened with my teeny, tiny, mustard seed wretchedness. Because spiritual birth occurs not through the will of man, but because of the mercy and miraculous power of God. With a teeny tiny, doubting, kicking and screaming seed, sinners are made saints. Some come more willingly, some come more readily, some are just knocked right off their high horses. Some make the journey more smoothly than others, and some are rebellious even in the safety of the Father’s loving eternal arms. 
Most come to this place thinking they know the Will of God. It usually looks a lot like their top three wishes. But in the hands of a God who molds, and forms souls for eternal purposes, these desires must be laid at the feet of the One who knows now and forever. As for some (myself included) some things must be taken from clenched tight hands, like dangerous toys in the hands of a child. Transformation is a painful process. Knowing God is not like finding a Genie in a bottle. He is not here to grant all of our wishes. God is not our Magic Wand. Although, I am convinced, more than ever, some believe that is what He is, exactly. 
When I first became a Christian, my biggest desire was right in front of me. Two “perfect”candidates. I believed that since I was now a Christian, this must mean I have hit the My Way or the Highway Jackpot. I assumed God must want me married to one of these perfect candidates, of course, because I was consumed with the desire to be married and get on with the happily ever after I assumed marriage was going to be. Um, no. Not so much. It would be about ten years later before God revealed who my husband would be, and when He did, it was the least likely person I would have expected. Besides that, I thought I misunderstood Him or (gasp) He had it wrong. But He made it clear. After my first round of Assuming God’s Will for Christians 101, I went on to do the same, again and again with different aspects of my life. 
See the fact is Jesus did not say to the Father, on that fateful night, in the Garden of Gethsemane, “By the way, I have a better idea for this whole eternal salvation thing, hear me out, Dad. Plus, I don’t have to die that brutal death on the cross. I am having some second thoughts about that whole deal, let’s have a little win-win, shall we?” No friends, He said “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” (Matthew 26:39)

Nevertheless. The power of one word to change the direction of humanity. God’s Will is not like a slow curve on the road. It is like a sharp veering off the road. Make that a cliff. It is a radical departure from your cozy, comfy presumptions about how your life should be, and all that you should have, and all of your happily ever after dreams. Beyond that it is more painfully, beautifully, graciously better than anything you can imagine. In ways you cannot fathom-Not because it is perfect. It won’t be. But perfect is coming, down the road anyway. In His time. 
Your kingdom come,
your will be done,
    on earth as it is in heaven.
Matthew 6:10

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Don’t Wait – A Post on Friendship, Eternity and Assumptions of Tomorrow

I replay the last time I saw him over and over in my head.
 Standing in the check out at Stop & Shop.

 We had been communicating over the phone and e-mail and only had been in touch after many years. Such was this friendship. It was the kinds of friendship that had the weathered storms of teen years, lifestyle changes and lives apart. It was the kind that had seen good times, bad times- some shared together, many more apart but then shared in catching up conversation. It had been close, distant, then close again. Although just prior to my dear friend Steve’s passing in 2010, life seemed to have delivered us back into our easy going friendship. I did not realize on that day at the market, it would be the last time I would see him, this side of eternity.

I called him, but not until a few days later. I e-mailed him and got no response. It bothered me because he had told me much about his recent struggles and challenges. I assumed things got busy. It was not like him to not respond at all.

It was one year later almost to the date of that encounter that I found out.
I was laying in the backyard when my mom walked around newspaper in hand and mentioned a memorial for Steve Harrison. “Is that your Steve?” she asked. I shot back “Of course not, it couldn’t be- I saw him awhile back. He’s busy. Lots going on with work, life and family stuff.” 
Upon further observation, to my complete shock, the reality was confirmed. My heart could not comprehend it. There are people in life somehow we just assume will always be there. Even if we are not always in touch, right? There are friends I fear, we believe will live forever. Loved ones who we feel are guaranteed to stay the course here with us. We live parallel lives in different worlds trusting there is always tomorrow.

There are days when you realize that the people who you miss most in this life are the ones who make you long for eternity. 

Steven Harrison – you are missed by this one, and many. June 25th will never be the same- but always a reminder of your smile and life. Always.

Today my friends, I have one message for you:

Don’t wait.
Don’t wait to say I’m sorry, or I love you.
Don’t wait to reach out.
Don’t wait to forgive, or let go of that one thing that holds you back from forgiving.
Don’t wait to be the bigger one. Or smaller one.

Really it doesn’t matter in the end.

Don’t trust you have tomorrow.


I was going to write a whole new post …as I think of him today –
but really I said it all at the post I wrote when it happened.
I hope you will take the time.

Here it is if you would like to check it out:
A Grief Observed With Hope

With continued love and prayers for the Harrison family and friends.

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