Have I loved You Enough?

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The LORD is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made.

Psalm 145:9

 

 

 

Have I Loved You Enough

The clock lays back,

reclines in moonlight,

as  I think back

on long, dark

sober nights-

asking myself

is it possible to

exhaust love?

can we lose what we have received?

will the tide return again?

what will we believe?

wiping curl from forehead

I look into your eyes

seeing you

not as you are

but only as you will

always be to me

through

my own misty eyes…

I wonder if

I have loved you enough,

can we measure how much?

Can we pour it in a cup-

is it wise to consider such?

standing at the doorway,

I saw your final breath

I thought I’d be more afraid

standing face to face with death,

though the hours were long

waiting

you held on,

and as we hung on your every

breath-

I  wondered what

I’d done  wrong

pondered the same question then

the one that still keeps coming up-

Have I loved you enough?

In the time we’ve had to share,

Did I think too much of temporal things

instead of drawing near?

Will I regret the morning,

when nighttime paints the sky black?

Will I wonder “What if?”

Or fear still all I lack?

When I ask myself the question,

that keeps coming to my mind,

Have I loved you enough?

Lord, I pray for a little

more time.

 

Linking with: Barbie this weekend for Weekend Whispers

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6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Barbara
    Sep 25, 2015 @ 18:35:27

    I saw the e-mail, telling me you had posted this…”Have I loved you enough?” Boy, Dawn, did you do it this time!!! I have been having a rough day, only because my patience and “love” – yeah – I’m using that word about “him” because, yes, I guess I DO love him! Him – my husband! With the dementia and hearing and just his attitude and the way he speaks to me…and now, my eyes are tearing up; I am choking up holding them inside at your words, because…while you ponder that question about your grandmother – and remember her as you loved her – I still have my loved one; and yet…and yet, how do I treat him. Yeah, AM I loving him enough?!

    Thank you so much for your touching “back story”…yes, sometimes they are necessary; and I appreciate your words…I have been doing a lot of blog writing for Blog-tember; Gifts Found…; other link-ups…and haven’t had any poetry pop into my head…I may use your title, but change it to “Am I Loving You Enough?” or will I wait until you are gone to wonder “Have I loved you enough?”…

    Hugs and Blessings to you my friend!

    P.S. the link below is one of the last couple of pieces I wrote; and you actually helped me with it!! I called it “The Eyes of Time”…

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    • enthusiasticallydawn
      Sep 25, 2015 @ 23:26:23

      The poem I wrote was really also about my daughter, husband, mother, all those God puts in my path but I only mentioned a bit of my daughter and gram…it was a pondering as God tugged my heartstrings, and challenged me to give pause to my inner attitudes…I am glad you found it touched you as well…and thankful God gives and uses at His discretion and so graciously. Will check out your poem…

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  2. denise
    Sep 26, 2015 @ 02:21:17

    beyond beautiful

    Reply

  3. rmclellan1949
    Sep 26, 2015 @ 13:15:49

    This poem touched my heart deeply. I’m struggling with a relationship in my life that this fits so much. I’m striving to get the love in my head into my heart but I know only God can do that so I think the thing to do is to open up to God and He will do the work. Thanks for sharing this heartfelt post.

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