The Boy, The Man and Grace

 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you;
I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
Ezekiel 36:26

*This is a fictional story. Gain from it what you will.

There was a boy who grew up without knowing his father for most of his life. His mother employed the friendship of many while the child grew, to help surround the child with a sense of family. The mother had no spiritual or financial heritage for the child but only a generational sin passed down to her from her own mother which was then passed on to the boy. They lived in a tiny apartment on the outskirts of the town.
As the boy gained stature, the mother worked day and night to provide the daily needs for her family of two. Having no siblings, the boy learned to be alone. He longed to live a different life than the one he was living, but he felt powerless to change at this time. He was after all, a child. Sometimes he was lonely but he did not understand loneliness. He began to find ways to satisfy this feeling. He longed for a family like those he imagined lived in the houses he saw along the bus route home. He saw homes with big yards, picket fences, barking dogs and laughing children. He noticed pumpkins on front steps, scarecrows, and hay stacks in the Fall. He imagined the family life that went on behind the walls. He did not fully understand.Yet within him, there grew a deep yearning.
Many years passed and the boy grew up. Sometimes he was impulsive. Often he found trouble, even when trouble did not find him. He longed for calm but chaos surrounded his every endeavor. He wanted to fit in but however he tried, all seemed to backfire.
He found himself misunderstood.
 He found himself on the wrong side of the law.
Accusations flew. He was trapped.
Within him his spirit cried out for freedom…
and for justice for the unseen. Mercy for the seen.
He longed for a life that was different than the one he had been handed.
Time went on. It is a lie, that time heals.
Scars are formed and remain…beneath the surface.
Healing only comes with the touch from one who has the power to heal.
Scars remained. Time continued.
The boy found success. Sometimes he took it as his own.
Other times it slipped by him unnoticed.
Most times he believed he was unworthy to have good things.
The past seemed distant. Yet, there were some things still remaining.
The longing remained as did the sin that had been handed down from generation to generation.
All else, he seemed to come to terms with on his own, or so he thought. Fatherlessness, loneliness, impulsiveness, insignificance. But those things had left scar tissue and remnants which lurked within, until the quiet watches of the night. The boy was now a man but the child remained, hidden, silent, still…beneath the surface.
The man made the acquaintance of a visitor who called herself Love. But she was not authentic, faithful or true. She left him brokenhearted. His loneliness remembered him. He found solace with many impostors. His heart grew weary. He turned to knowledge. He felt confident in this new pursuit. It passed away his waking hours. But knowledge was vast, and his desire overwhelmed him. He felt small and insignificant. In this vulnerability, he remembered his childhood.
He finally cried out. “Why am I forsaken?”
He looked in the mirror and felt ashamed.
In the stillness of that moment came a small voice.
“I love you.”
At first, he was startled.
Yet there was stirring from within.
“I have always loved you.”
The boy within the man began weep, sobbing softly at first, but so shaking the man, that his whole body was wracked with the force. All of the years spilled out in the tears, as the boy was embraced by grace.
“I have loved you with and everlasting love, you are mine.”
The boy rested peacefully within the bosom of the Lord.
The man remained…
He lived the rest of his days in fullness of grace
through faith in the One who saves.
The Name above all Names, Jesus.
Lord of All.
© Dawn Paoletta 2011
This is love: not that we loved God,
but that he loved us and sent his Son
as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.
1 John 4:10
The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying:
“I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.”
Jeremiah 31:3
Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body.
  Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter:
Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the duty of all mankind.
For God will bring every deed into judgment,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil.
Ecclesiastes 12:11-14
See what great love the Father has lavished on us,
that we should be called children of God!
1 John 3:1

For it is by grace you have been saved,
 through faith—and this is not from yourselves,
it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast.
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works,
which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Ephesians 2:8-10

Published by enthusiasticallydawn

Dawn Paoletta is a life enthusiast who loves to juggle words, chug coffee, and journal excessively. You can find her gathering stones on the beach most mornings. She enjoys hanging out with her hubby, daughter and family pets in Narragansett, RI and shares her passion, poetry and prose @Enthusiastically, Dawn.

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